Absolute freedom exists, but true freedom is gained with some sense of morality, mortality and ultimately some control imposed on us in an effort to keep us from doing harm. In active addiction many of us felt as though we had been merely caged animals, locked inside our minds by selfishness and slef-centeredness, as well as remorse, guilt and pity.
"All of us felt at times that we were regaining control, but such intervals - usually brief - were inevitably followed by still less control, which led in time to pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization."
"All of us felt at times that we were regaining control, but such intervals - usually brief - were inevitably followed by still less control, which led in time to pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization."
Through the process of recovery we begin to let go of these feelings. We admit our faults to god and another person we can trust, and we begin a process I like to call re-moralization. We are once again capable of differentiating right from wrong, an act lost early in our active addictions...We are able to again see the pain we have caused others for what it is, the depth and weight that pain has caused so that we can make an honest, forthright and appropriate amends later in the steps. Following these amends we begin to build or relationship with a loving God and through this we become from of the burden of pain and guilt we once carried.
As we move into the 12th step and begin carrying this message to others, we then lose the last of the bars that once held us in...As we give selflessly to others, we are stripped of our selfishness and begin to experience true freedom...
Freedom?